Wednesday, September 12, 2018

Blog Talk

As a blogger, I want to be real. I have never wanted to put anything out there that isn't true to me, and true to my life. It's one of the reasons I decided to add the "on life" part to the title of my blog.  There are a lot of blogs out there that sugar coat a lot of things or that make every product they try seem amazing or that make their life look perfect. And those things can cause a lot of problems. I want my blog to be so completely "me" and real that you don't even have to wonder. And at the same time, I try to stay very positive and happy. No one likes to read something that is negative. I want my readers to go away feeling happier, inspired and motivated to do better. 


It's been a year since I switched from "All These Things" to "Running on Life".  I started blogging as a way for me, as a mom of two, to use my brain in a different way. I needed a creative outlet and a new hobby, and I wanted to feel like I was making a difference in somebody's life.  All These Things
was a way for me to keep a journal, a blog about motherhood, and share other things that I loved in hopes that someone would read it and feel uplifted.  That was the name of this blog for 3 years.

One day I came across a comment or something that someone who didn't love my blog left. It was right after having V. My hormones were high as well as the level of exhaustion I was feeling with 3 little kids. J was just starting school, and it made me feel offended and frustrated and just like I wasn't doing things "right".  After a week of feeling bad for myself and feeling very uninspired to write (because it wasn't good anyway, at least according to one person) I decided to step away from this space for a while. That while turned into 8 months. No blogging, no creating, no commenting or sharing.  Part of me felt very free. I hadn't realized that the time I was putting into blogging meant that I was missing out on a lot of other things. I spent those 8 months taking trips to the family cabin, spending every second with my family. I spent a lot of time with my sister. I spent a lot of time doing what I wanted to do. And I never told a sole, not ONE person, not even Trevon about that bad review.

After my 8 month break, something completely unexpected and heartbreaking happened. My grandma passed away. I know that's not a huge deal for a lot of people reading, but MY GRANDMA passed away. This wasn't any grandma, this is MY grandma. She was the spunkiest, sweetest and funnest grandma you would ever meet. She had a big part in raising me and I saw her on a weekly basis at least. It changed everything.

I started having trouble sleeping. I would wake up in a panic for no apparent reason. I would wake up shaking and breathing hard. Every nerve in my body would be tingling and firing and I couldn't move. My brain felt so loud and yet empty at the same time. Then my stomach would start to turn and I wasn't sure if I was sick with a stomach bug or maybe had food poisoning or what, but after 4 hours straight of this, I would finally fall back to sleep just to do it all over again the next night. I didn't know what it was. I figured stress and lack of exercise because I was too tired to run.  (We found out a few months later that this was anxiety)

Cue my small quarter-life crisis (or what I like to think is my quarter-life crisis). I begged Trevon to buy a camper. I was not going to spend another summer sitting around at home letting my body freak out and I knew that tent camping wasn't going to happen with the few tent camping trips we had experienced with kids.  We bought Kit. And we worked hard on remodeling it. And I didn't have another night like the ones I had been having the whole time we worked on the camper. Not one.


Another thing the camper did for me was give me something else that I wanted to blog about. Not that I wanted to turn my blog into a camper-remodeling-project blog. I don't have money or time for that. But I did want to document our project so I started blogging again.  Along with blogging, I started running again too. And so All These Things became Running on Life. A lifestyle blog that focused on fitness (particularly running) as a mom and my life as a mom. 

Yes, I do try to take mostly good/pretty pictures. Yes, I do share products that I do actually like, and if I try something that I don't like, I do give it an honest review.  Yes, I share all the good stuff, but I share some fails too. I'm human and I want to be honest. So this blog will not be perfect. There is an occasional bad picture. My lighting isn't always great, my goals aren't always reached. I share my fails along with my wins.  I want this to be a place where you don't feel like you can live up to what it looks like life should suppose to be. Live your life the best you can, and always remember that everything on the internet is only a crumb of life. There is always more to the story than what the picture says.

The last few weeks have been crazy.  M starting school threw us off more than I expected, I'm not running yet, but will hopefully be back to it soon (I could really use those endorphins). I've been tired and grouchy and impatient with my kids. And I've been uninspired in this little area. But it's just going to take a little bit longer and we will be back into a routine that will be easy to work with. Until then, I'll post as often as I can and make it as meaningful/helpful as possible. Thanks for reading!


Do you have a favorite tip to help me get back into a routine without feeling so overwhelmed?

How long have you been reading here?

Have you had a quarter-life crisis?




3 comments:

  1. Jenny,

    I rarely comment because I prefer to only comment when I think I have something to really ADD to a conversation. I guess that is in line with the saying "If you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all". I am terribly sad that people feel like they have the right or the ability to take the joy from others. Your blog should be your outlet. It should be a safe place for you to share. I honestly enjoy reading your day to day life posts and of course reading about your struggles because it reminds me that I am not alone in my personal battles. As a reader is there anything that I can do for you to remind you that whatever you want to share is more than welcome and is needed in this space on the internet?

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    1. This is probably one of the best comments I have ever received on my blog. THANK YOU!! I honestly just love the interaction. I love the comments and the friendships that I make through this space. I love hearing when I’ve helped someone or that I’ve said something that touches someone because it shows me that what I do is helping someone! Thank you for your comment and for reading! I hope you have a fantastic day.

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    2. Jenny,

      I would definitely love to hear more about your day to day life ... maybe you could do a day recap post. :)
      Also, does your family have favorite places to shop? Are there certain things that you buy EVERY week at the grocery store? What is one thing that you cook every week for your family? I know for my family we have a grocery list with a LOT of recurring items on the list ... but I am not sure if that's normal?? ;)

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